It's always funny seeing the world and me getting crazier and crazier
while in a glimpse of clarity and rational thinking, reality seems fine
and well, ready to be lived. Bombarded by negative news and fantastic
shows of world ending by all, any and no means, I almost break down
laughing of this fantasy, this moral code of today's social notion of reality.
Of course I also feel the pain and sadness and misery of this scenery but it's
too much for a single individual in one place at a time... Globalization
means "knowing" what is Really beyond you, beyond what you can bear
and really feel as you. If you stop your brain for a second and really
appreciate what you're having, life is ok, life is flowing. Then you have
to face others, responsibilities and possibilities and it all kind of goes away
- you're again at high virtual ocean waves. Everything crumbling and not
safe, everything not meaning anything. But if you look with your meaning
things turn out real and are only - and all - of what they are. End of the civilization?
Perhaps... But does that mean the end of you? No.
For the really crazy feeling is that you can control the madness - your madness -      
with your consciousness of it. Knowing something is revealing it, this means
being liberated from it. The path that starts from then on is the scary one,
because it's lightened by your own means and schemes. Alone and not so alone.
Always remember that Rimbaud quote: "The only unbearable thing is that
nothing is unbearable." It's hitting the floor or standing still with eyes wide open.
Then moving.